Awakening

by JD Jentri

distant slumber long and dark

novocaine of mind

numbing senses and my thoughts

feelings I can’t find

hampered days and restless nights

floating through my life

in mud the hue of ebony

thick with endless strife

carbon shadows’ wicked dance

inside my tortured head

calling forth a revenant

as though already dead

yet in the dusk a glow I see

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a light a tender spark

which draws me from obscurity

and shrouded fetters stark

as I wake I sense anew

the world around me now

full of colors blinding cast

upon my fevered brow

what woke me from my lethargy

my apathetic dream

into existence vividly

a splendor never seen

sharp relief these images

that cross before my eyes

once silhouettes now clarified

beneath unbroken skies

cognizant I see the junction

paths that I can take

where I was mired once before

decisions I can make

motionless I hesitate

for it has been so long

since I have seen the light of day

I fear lest I choose wrong

but there’s no finish line to cross

no drill instructor here

unmasked at last I’ll choose a path

whose journey I see clear

passion hitherto thought dead

now rises once again

my desiccated soul infused

with joy as though with rain

for I am finally awake

to my reality

my life is what I make of it

what I want it to be

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JD Jentri

JD Jentri writes poetry and prose in Arizona. A member of The Creative Academy of Writers, she enjoys exploring the unknown in her work. In her free time, she makes jewelry, crochets, and plays the piano.